Anyone who wants to approach God must believe both that he exists and that he cares enough to respond to those who seek him.Heb. 11:6 (The Message)
Life is a struggle right now--not on the outside but on the inside I'm struggling with an issue. It is something I gave over to God 2 1/2 years ago--at that time He promised His hand would be in it. That it would be okay. I had peace then. Now I have lost that peace. I go through the day sort of numb to really enjoying life and all God has for me each day. I go through the night restless, waking to a headache which I know is a sign of stress--and a lack of peace.
God promised that He would be in the situation--that it would all be okay. Right now, it's not okay and I've lost perspective.
How did those men in Hebrews 11 do it? How did they have peace from day-to-day, not wondering WHEN God would fulfill His promises? They didn't even SEE His promises fulfilled in their lifetime. Oh my! How long Lord? How long? Will I have to spend the rest of my life believing without ever seeing? I don't know if my heart can take it. Lord, give me the ability to persevere--A Long Obedience in the Same Direction, as Eugene Peterson's book so aptly puts it. I think I need to re-read that book.
What I need, like those men of Heb. 11, is faith. A faith that does not see and yet believes. Then the peace will come.